Blue lips

On Wednesday, at just 48 hours old, our little J's lips turned blue.  A scary blue, the blue that screams...something is wrong.

and they continue to do so. 

So I buckled her up and the two of us headed back to the hospital, just 12 short hours after we were discharged. 

Her pediatrician ordered labs, a chest x-ray, an echocardiogram, and said he would most likely need to admit her for observation.  We struggled through each needle stick, I cried more than she did.  I found my mama bear voice when I told a phlebotomist that I wanted someone with lots of experience to draw my daughter, and brushed aside the negative body language and eye roll she gave when exiting the room.  I told the x-ray tech he could take a hike - seriously - when he told me to "stay in the waiting room," and he "would just take J down the hall, turn left twice, and be in the last room on the right."  He pulled the line of me not needing radiated, I told him I'd be happy to stand wherever he stands so he doesn't get radiated, and that same annoyed body language resulted from him, and this mama didn't care.  Overbearing, perhaps, but she is my little girl.   

Then we waited to hear back.  And I didn't sleep, at all.  I was horrible to P, grumpy with my little boys, and just a tearful mess.

We found out she has immature white blood cells - so we are going to be overboard about keeping her at home, and away from anyone sick.  So if you visit, be prepared to scrub in as if you are preparing for surgery if you want to hold her...just saying :). 

She also has some fluid on her heart which was detected in the chest x-ray, so we had the echo done to rule out any heart anomalies as the culprit of the excess fluid.  The echo guy - not sure of his title - told our pediatrician that her heart looks fabulous.  Our pediatrician told us a pediatric cardiologist will read it, and we will have the results on Monday.  To ease our worry over the weekend, he did say that excess fluid on a newborns heart shows up every once in a while and is often a sign of prematurity.  He said if this is the case, and he thinks it is, her body will absorb the fluid by the time she reaches 40 weeks gestation - so by March 10th.  We have strict orders of what to do if things change with her, and we are keeping a close eye on her.

So for now, her lips turn blue when she feeds and her respiration drastically decreases, and it freaks me out every.single.time.  I am so looking forward to feedings becoming easier for her, but am so very thankful that this issue is temporary.
 

Daddy has declared that K's blankie stays in his crib, so K will go in and snatch it through the crib bars :)

J's outfit compliments of my bff :).

R wanted to take a picture of his "princess J with his baby doll."

I love the way my boys are so mesmerized by her. 

R tells me "mommy I'm so happy you were 'pregmamt' with my baby sister, I love her so much!"  He loves to sing to her.

Watching track and field together