The wait

Lately our life has been revolving around waiting.

If you know Paul or I, well you can imagine how that is going.  This is definitely a huge test in our patience.  

• Waiting for an email or phone call about OSUs decision on if Paul will be offered a campus interview.  
• Waiting for July 31st to get here, the official last day of grad school for this tired wife/mama/RN/student
• Waiting for this snow/ice to clear up and give us some glorious weather that allows for outdoor play.  
• Waiting to meet this sweet girl due to make an appearance before my 29th birthday in June

and while it is so easy to get wrapped up in the process of wanting to hurry time up, to just get through this one week…it is bittersweet.

I am getting so wrapped up in existing, doing, being, and trying to keep up that I am failing at just sitting and enjoying.  So once quiet time is over today I will:

turn off my brain…I will ignore the thoughts stirring - about how I don't want to forget how to treat and diagnose a patient with hypothyroid, hyperthyroid, chronic kidney disease…what labs to draw, what physical assessment things to key in on, what tests to run, when to refer to a specialist...  

I will ignore that check list that I wanted to accomplish today, but won't.  Who wants to pay bills, or do taxes, or write a paper, or chart from Monday's clinical day, or figure out a way to fit in swim lessons and soccer practice x 3 kids into our already packed schedule…

Yeah, those can wait until tonight, after the three little loves of my life are tucked into bed.  

In just 10 short minutes, I am going to focus solely on them.  And enjoy every last second of it.  Even if all three are just as grumpy as they were this morning.  Because the reality is, my time at home this term is so very limited, that when I am here I really need to make every effort to be here, not just here as my body is here, but mentally, emotionally, and physically totally present with them.

I think I forgot what life was once like when it wasn't so stinking busy all the time.

Goodness, it is going to be so sweet to get back to that point.