the way it just is.

I sat in front of the computer screen tonight.  

My brother, sisters, and mom right in front of me.

As thankful as I am for Skype, sometimes I hate it.

It just isn't the same.

And being behind this darn computer screen makes me realize how the homesickness is still blaring.  Still right here, and as hard as I try to make it home here, I still miss Oregon.

Everyday.

So much.

Family.  Our small, Corvallis apartment.  Being walking distance to 3 different parks.  Oregon water.  The ocean and mountains.  Slurpees.  Good, lifelong friends.  My old job.  Dutch Brothers coffee.