Perspective

The last few weeks I have had a change in perspective.

The first was when we had our 20 week ultrasound scheduled.  With the boys I was SO anxious to find out gender on this date, that was the only thing on my mind.  I'm not sure if it is the nurse in me now, but this time around I was just super anxious to hear - you have a health baby.  Perhaps it was related to not feeling her move by this appointment, a drastic difference from the previous two pregnancies.  Either way, my perspective changed from thinking blue or pink, to not caring and just hoping for healthy.

And then yesterday at work.  I got a text from P that read "I didn't get an interview at PSU" and while my heart sank, I had a quick perspective change.  I suddenly became super thankful for all the interviews that P has been going on, even though they are out of state.  Because a job, is well a job, and with our growing family that is what we need.  So there - perspective change.

I think this means I am growing up, crazy?!

So there is a move, most likely out of state, in our not so distant future. Two days ago I'd of been super bummed about that, but now I am just so thankful for the 2 job interviews P has alreay been on, and for the 2 upcoming ones this next week.  Keep em' coming.  Despite the lack of sleep that P is getting, or the difficult time R is having with P being gone so much right now, or the exhaustion from not having my supportive husband home to help...I'll take it. 

I am eager to see where we will end up.